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| 09:28am 06/07/2009 |
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oh summer. being in school during summer really sucks but i've still been able to have a really good time when i can. i never thought i would do anything that would get in the way of doing what i want to do when i want to do it. ah well. bike rides, puppies, occasional hang out sessions with my #1 girlfriend, swimming and getting fucked up with my lost boys. what more could a girl ask for?
i think a road trip to chicago is in order when cortnee gets back from her study. this seriously needs to happen. |
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| "you're such a beautiful LIE.........." |
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| 08:50pm 10/02/2009 |
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i'm starting to get my creative flow back. it may be the drugs and lack of sleep but hey, fuck it. it makes me happy that i got it back after not doing all these things that i love to do. reading, drawing, writing. its flowing out of me like crazy. maybe i just have a lot of bullshit built up that needed to come out. who knows.
the past weekend was pretty overwhelming but i got through it. just trying to stay as positve as possible, not letting bitchez ruin this for me.
the sunshine has been doing wonders for my mood. it sucks i will spend the summer at school but i gotta get it done with. i'm down for a long bike ride but i gotta make that paper.
spring in one month
ani in 2 months
21sr bday in 3 months. i gotta lot to look forward to and the time seems to be zipping the fuck by so it'll be here sooner than i think.
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| this is all i have in my head |
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| 05:57pm 04/11/2008 |
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Johnny's got a light in his eyes and Shirley's got a light on her lips
Jakes got a monkeyshine on his head and Debra Ann's got a tiger in her hips
they can twist and turn they can move and burn
they can throw themselves against the wall
but they creep for what they need
and they explode to the call and then they move
move
Sex beat, go
They're stupid like I told ya, very stupid like ya saw
very stupid as the simple thought of ever thinking at all
and all their mind, all their souls all their bodies all we know
all we know all the things that should a made us whole
all the colourless security was all that someone could go and move, move
Sex beat, drop
and yes you do look cool and by the floodlights so blue
you make my tropical apartment bed, your sacrificial pool
my body in the water and my heart is in your hand
so this is the way you choose to send me to the judgement land
so you can't move, move oohh..sex beat, go
and every day I agree you throw me down by the christmas tree
I watched your lights blink on and off while you start your fun with me
I, I know your reasons and I, I know your goals
we can fuck forever but you will never get my soul
just so you can move
so you can move
so you can move
so you can move so you can
oohh... Sex beat |
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| 07:35pm 03/11/2008 |
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mood:  restless music: the gun club
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someone take me out for vegetarian sushi. im craving that shiit!!!!!!!!!!
school is going well. i wish that i could wax people everyday!!!!! anyone want a wax?????????? |
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| 05:27pm 02/10/2008 |
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about that deep dark hole of depression, well, it found me.
i dont fucking know anyone that i thought i did. well, cortnee doesnt count. i love her. |
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| 01:19pm 27/09/2008 |
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eeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhh.
so, i had an alright week. im doing a surprisingly good job at distracting myself from falling into a dark hole of depression. GO ME.
show tonight, been looking forward to it all week. |
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| 01:10pm 02/05/2008 |
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motherfucking portland.
good things:
-powell book store. largest book store in the world and its an independently owned. i could spend days in there
-the library has a zine section
-the weed is fucking awesome
-its pretty (when it isnt raining)
-bike friendly which would be a lot cooler if i had a fucking bike here.
-smokes are $3.45
-scooter (caLvins little brother) lives a block away
-being able to aford to go to san francisco in july with wes
bad things:
-the "punk" scene so far is shit. pretty punks have taken over
-d.i.y. scene??????????????????????????????????????not so far
-bums everywhere, i've probally given away 2 pks of smokes total. they get me everytime. do i look like i have money to be giving shit away? fuck.
-joshs girlfriend ruining the past 3 weeks of our lives
-being pretty much homeless all of a sudden
-yuppies everywhere. every other girl wheres fake eyelashes. GROSS.
-being homesick
-knowing that shit wouldnt be so fuct up if we were home.
-bronwen and greezus arent with us.
-almost being arrested
-measure 11, if they didnt have that i would have wiped the floor with christas fucking face. i dont like being instigated.
-skank whores everywhere
there are a lot more but im just making myself pissed off.
michigan does not suck so bad and if i knew i could get a job that i enjoy id probally be on my way back as soon as i see the ocean and visit sam. |
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| 04:03pm 28/03/2008 |
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so today i had to say goodbye to two people that i have become very close to, two people that have become my family and done so much for me. needless to say it was a tear fest when b dropped me back off at my moms. i know i'll see them again but it just sucks the four of can't just stay together forever. the past 3 months we were all eachother had to make it through the shitty winter in frankfort, we formed our own little family. if you guys read this, know i miss you already and i love you and apreciate everyhting you've done<3
and the shitty part is the those are just the firts goodbyes i've had to say so far which makes me even more anxious to just fucking get to oregon. michigan sucks but it is my home and now i know that i do have a lot more here than i thought. i also know that oregon will fucking rock and if i dont leave now, i may be 40 at a blink of an eye regretting not ever being able to do it..... so im leaving. and i'll be back and probally leave again but i know that when im old i will die in michigan knowing that i had an awesome life and that my families and heart are here. theres no place like home, right?
ok, im done being an emo fuck. today has just been a little rough. |
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| 03:28pm 05/03/2008 |
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livin it up in f-fort still. work at a nursing home...its not so bad. i have to work in a 1/2 hour....yay.
for those of you that care, i'll be back in town the 22nd so if your cool i'll see you at the holy blow out and if you're lame as fuck i'll probally see you there too.
thats about it. |
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| bloody fucking lindsay |
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| 12:39pm 08/10/2007 |
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my period is killing me. im glad that im not working today. that would suck. a lot.
im not sure what today has in store for me yet. i'll figure it out. |
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| "i should have kept my eyes closed" |
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| 11:14am 28/09/2007 |
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i got some shitty pics of my new tats on myspace. myspace is retarded but ya gotta love it for some fucked up reason.
so, i had like 7 messages from DUMB ASS people asking me if DIRK IS DEAD. um..................NO, he is NOT dead. different dirk, and i guess if you mattered at all you would know if he died and wouldnt be asking his girlfriend on myspace. go fuck yourself.
aaaaaaaaah, that felt kinda liberating. i need to go shower.
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| 01:15pm 25/09/2007 |
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cant wait for the icepick show. its one of the few places i feel comfortable. who's going!!???
thats my excitment for the week. |
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| 11:30am 21/09/2007 |
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i get presents today!!! YES. and i get to hang out with anthony who've ive missed oh so dearly...tomarrow i get to see greeze and pukeface, maybe b too...i dunno. im excited though.
work should go rather smoothly today. i think this ghetto gangsta white bitch at my work got fired, shes the only one i dont get along with.
last night i went a little crazy and chopped my fucking hair....bad idea. i dont really know what to do about it though..oh well. i should never cut my hair again. |
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| 11:34pm 19/09/2007 |
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i am really tired...work sucked today. i'll get over it.
i just opened my check and i thought it would be a LOT more. ohwell. jesus, they tax the fuck out of that shit.
its almost friday...i guess that doesnt matter when i have to work sat....
at least im getting some ink done saturday1!! man. im excited! |
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| 01:21pm 18/09/2007 |
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i wonder how long its gonna take me to get sick of ani? man, i love her.
tat on sat!!! hopefully ill get some pics. nan, its gonna hurt. |
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| 04:08pm 16/09/2007 |
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what are you suppose to feel when the most important person in the world and the part of your life is over?
how do you make yourself fall OUT of love with someone after 2 years of loving someone?
this hurts more than i could have imagined, i feel like someone died, or maybe i did a little. |
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| seasonal depression...is a cunt |
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| 10:48pm 14/09/2007 |
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this was not a good day off.
i didnt do anything that i wanted to do.
i didnt see d, greeze or bornwen. suck.
i spent way too much time in a car and at the mall thanks to jon howard. i fucking hate the mall and everyone in it. |
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| i miss the smell of dirty punk rock loser boy. |
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| 11:28am 13/09/2007 |
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i just got my check in the mail. $180.00 for working 2 1/2 days. that makes me feel MUCH better about working. i get new pants!!!
if anyone feels like hanging out they should call me. 607.9848
i have nothing to say really. i smell bad and need a shower. i woke up later than usual all this week..probally bc im working too much. oh well. i dont work tomarrow!!!
i love that i write about my life to a bunch of people that secretly hate me. lol. oh well, we used to be cool. |
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| i dont care if you dont deserve this |
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| 11:03am 12/09/2007 |
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i am freezing. is it suppose to be this cold?
does anyone ever feel like their head is so cluttered and your thoughts are moving so fast that if it stops you're afraid that your head might explode. i think that all of this "depression" shit i seem to have fallen into would be a mixture of sobriety, too much time standing there at work, not talking to anyone for hours and thinking too hard and too much about fucking everything. i cant stand it. i cant wait till friday, im going to try and sleep in. and im not going to think about YOU and your situation and the fact that ive let you drag me into this mess and now, even wanting out sometimes, i never ever could bc "iloveyou"....fuck.me.
i need a haircut, somethings gotta change and that normally makes me feel a bit better. |
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